I dont know how much longer I'm going to last
Im being eaten from the inside out all by my corrupted past
My life has been cursed since nineteen eighty-eight
So for me to live a perfect life is just a little too late
I've seen things at a young age that a child should never see
I've been places in life I had no business to be
I've heard strange things that I wish I didn't hear
I grew up wishing for my parents, but they would never appear
Living in a home with no heat, lights, or food
But I would go to school with a smile and an exceptional good mood
Crying myself to sleep because that night I didn't eat
Plus having anemia made it harder to stay on my feet
Everything that I have ever owned has been taken from me and sold
But there would still be those nights of sleeping in the cold
Growing up with a mother strung out on crack
Praying to God every night to bring me my old mother back
An embarrassment is what she is to me now
Confused by her choice of lifestyle asking myself how...
How could I let my mother slip so far away...?
Shes lost to her family like a dog left astray
Nothings going right for me and I cant wait to leave
I may look happy on the outside but dont let my looks deceive
I wish this whole time living was just a dream
And the things around me weren't actually what they seem
My life is so screwed I dont know what to do
Wanting to click my heels 3 times repeating "I want to start over new"
I'm like a ticking bomb, at any time I'm ready to explode
Everyday carrying the weight of the world becomes an even heavier load
I dont want to live with any of these burdens anymore
I'm tired of being ashamed of my life, considered to be poor
Corrupted by the truths this world keeps so secretly hidden
Makes happiness intangible to all like it must be forbidden
In the end I will rise from destruction like a pheonix rising from the burnt out fire
Never coming back down, I'll only fly up higher and higher